@slpdprvd Hang in there. I am in the same boat as my son has had this mental illness since age 21, so over 10 years now! He will do fine on a drug for awhile then relapse with a manic episode and then has to start all over again. I heard that each of these episodes cause brain damage and we have noticed he is not the same friendly smart young man with so much promise that he once was. He is still in hospital now for 2 months and meds not working. It’s all overwhelming and we have no support, The family just ignores it, but then they have always ignored us so we should be used to it. This forum is the only outlet for me where most people understand mental illness is a disease and not just toxic behavior and that ‘call the cops to fix it’ doesn’t work. Some days I feel I can’t go on. Have you tried NAMI? I was thinking about reaching out to them, just have felt too low to do it. I don’t know what to do.