Thank you for your thoughtful response I probably won't die from this but know I am in for a rough ride I just want to get the treatment going and over with I am not a patient person by nature and do not like either being care for or relying on people I am just 8 weeks or so post op and going to speech therapy and lymphedema pt
Plus, I am scheduled for surgery on my vocal cord since it was damaged when cancer was removed from it The result is that I am not getting my voice back and am breathless most of the time I am hanging my hat on that the surgery will help Please root for me

I have been struggling with my feelings about this and couldn't put my finger on just what I was feeling until a few minutes ago It's that I have not really been sick all my life and God knows I have taken my lumps and survived them So why NOW? Why?

I stopped working 3 years ago I turned 78 last week I was an adoption and foster care social worker for 37 years
I supported and helped hundreds of children and adults to the best of my ability, and I am proud of my work So, why now? Why me? Why do this to my children who now take care of me? They watched my husband, their father, die a slow death while on home Hospice. Don't make them do it again I am weary and resentful

Thanks for listening to whining It helps