I just love my loving husband after 36+ wonderful years together. He also died in our bed after an unexpected illness ((ALS) diagnosed 2 years prior. I hear you and understand your pain. Its been almost 8 months and I still cry everyday. I miss his company and just having him around.
Most people around me say nice things with good intentions but I feel worst cause they dont understand the feeling of emptiness and of been incomplete. Im a therapist myself and my colleagues and friends recommend to see a therapist but I believe this pain is part of a process of grief that should take its own course.
In my case I dont want to date or find a new partner but can understand that it may help or be an option for other people.
I cant imagine how hurtful most have been for you to feel rejected by those 3 women. Try not to take it too personally though I know its personal. Neither one of them seemed to have been able to understand your feelings and at least be a good listener and appreciate your invitation to dinner.
From my own experience its helping to allow myself to cry, be upset, angry or anything I feel with the certainty that at some point I will learn to live with the good memories and accept that his not coming back. At this point this is the hardest cause all I wish is to have him close to me even if its for a few minutes. I hope sharing this with you do not add to your pain. All I want is to let you know that its Ok to feel the way you feel right now and you dont need to comply or try to fell or behave as other expects you to.
Take care and blessings to you. V