@susan38, it’s not a wonder that you’re tired and worn out from all the things you’ve been through, your body and mind are spinning around trying to make sense of everything and it’s no easy task. Susan, you are a warrior in battle with the evil disease that invaded your body and now you’re kicking back for the right to live your best life, the darkness will come to an end soon and the tests have shown improvement, it will get better each day and when you want some answers or some peace you can talk to God because he listens to you and he will help you to get better, God bless you and keep the faith strong.