Hi Pamdga,
I'm so sorry for the death of your husband. It sounds like he was a wonderful husband! My husband died of lung cancer in front of me also in July of 2024. It is very lonely and hard for people like us. We were married for 30 years and like your husband, mine told me often how much he loved me and I told him the same. Our husbands are now up in Heaven and we will be reunited with them eventually in God's time. But it is very lonely for us now. My husband and I had no children together and the ones we did have from other marriages ignored us totally. So, I'm like you all alone. You are right. Couples seem to disappear at times like this. I, too seem to only talk to people at the grocery store. I'm 79 and most people and family I knew are all up in Heaven. It does get lonely. This forum helps a lot. I have found very nice people on here who one can communicate with. It takes the loneliness away a little. I also talk to God every day and he answers my prayers. That helps a lot. God is always there for us. It states in the Bible that "He knows of all of your needs." and he does. I'm so glad that you believe in God because you really need him now. Just ask for his help in getting through this awful time and he will be there for you.

Your sad situation is still very new and hard to deal with. I remember. Plus your situation was unexpected. That makes it harder. My husband had lung cancer for 14 years so death eventually from that was expected. It does get better a little at a time. Remember the good times. That's important.

If you ever want to talk, I have lots of time. I'll say a prayer for you.
I wish you the best.
PML