@pml You are very kind, my fellow sister. As painful as your experiences are / have been, I'm grateful to meet people like you who haven't always had it easy because it brings great comfort and encouragement to my spirit. My life started out hard and really has never let up, but I wouldn't be the person I am today without God leading me through it all and showing up in every moment, being the One who I needed most. The enemy has been after my life, trying to derail my journey since basically always, but the Lord has spared me time and time again, from myself and others. If my life were made into a movie, it'd be rated 'MA' - I can't make this stuff up, as I'm sure you have an incredibly colorful journey as well; we all do, especially when we are following Christ. My grief atm is so complex and has many layers - I've lost numerous people thru a variety of situations, but I've also been grieving my health for years+ now, my job, etc. BUT, I know that Romans 8:18 rings true and there are better (more abundant) days ahead, nonetheless. I've got my eye on the prize and I'm clinging to the hem of His garment; nothing can harm me. I'm thankful for Job's testimony, among others, because it helps me to draw strength and hope from the One who IS. 🙂 Thank you so much for being one of many here for me when I need to be surrounded by community most. And, I'll always appreciate the prayers. < 3 Likewise, I am here for you and anyone else who needs to talk. About anything.