I feel your pain. I was diagnosed at 52 and have had 2 colectomy surgeries (1 recurrence since about 1.5 years later in my peritoneum(abdominal wall) outside colon so stage IV after only having stage 1. I also had chemo following my second surgery. I am very tired easily. There is a test called Signatera that has for about a year now made me feel some reassurance because it tests your blood for MRD (minimum residual disease) and can detect cancer sooner that the every 3 month CT scans (6-9 months sooner)! I just got a positive result after 17 months of tests every 2 months, but at least I know its in my blood and can discuss with onco any treatment or scans sooner. Anyway, I understand feeling like a burden. This is a horrible disease that impacts the entire family! I just wanted you to know you are not alone. Anything you can do to help your body like stop alcohol/smoking, eat mediterranean and exercise when possible I think helps for not having a recurrence. I only was limiting my alcohol to 1 about once a week but I am considering nothing now. I hope yours doesn't recur for your sake and the sake of the family. Sounds like you had a radical colectomy so that is good they could remove it all.