@colleenyoung I was feeling more & more optimistic every day, and (oddly) eager to start chemo. But I got a call from my oncologist this morning that has really shaken me. She said that after discussing the results of last week's EUS with the surgeons, they now want to delay treatment (again) and do a diagnostic laparoscopy. They're looking for cancer cells in the peritoneal fluid, and if they find them, they will upstage me to stage IV, and no longer consider my cancer curable. I'm really struggling with this news, and finding it very difficult to remain focused on "what we *do* know, right now". In fact, I think this is even worse than the time between initial discovery of a lesion and staging.