@celia16 Yeah, that's what I think I'm really looking for at this time is online support. I tried Griefshare once already and it did not "click." I have intentions of getting back into therapy, but right now I'm in a transition period of life and not working atm. So, that's out of the question until then. I'm just so tired of "talking" to people in person etc, and would really prefer an online community, I just don't know where to find one yet (besides here, of course). I know I need something in the immediate future tho with the buildup of trauma, otherwise I'm afraid I won't be equipped to face the holidays or even do normal life activities. I don't want to be halted. I totally get ya - thanks for the encouragement. Sending hugs.