@meingan When I first learned to in my 30’s that I had been suffering from depression since college I finally had a name for what I was going through.
I remember reading a Time Magazine with Prozac on the cover. The next day I called my PCP at the time and said this article is describing me. We tried Prozac and I did not react well to it. Then we tried Zoloft and my mind had no adverse effects.
She referred me to a psychiatrist and eventually we added Wellbutrin, Buspar and Klonopin for anxiety. I have tried other antidepressants and always came back to Zoloft. I actually cut my dosage to 50mg a day and kept everything else the same.
I am certainly not a doctor but I believe depression, anxiety and OCD are all tied in together. My son suffers from depression and my daughter has OCD.
My mother by the way was clinically depressed her whole life which led to a pretty dysfunctional family growing up.
I hope for you it is hormonal because my son had panic attacks and they were frightening.
Good luck to you.