@susan38 I know, I am always thinking and feeling that way too. Every situation is different, so I hope and pray you will still be able to get to a place where things are better. Certainly once you get through the active phase of chemo you will get past most if not all of the bad things that come along with that part of it. A lot of people do reach a point in their journey where they feel a lot better and have no regret of treatment. Also remember there is no guilt in sleeping while you are going through all this. Resting is actually very important while your body is trying to fight and heal.