@charliesilberman - Oh my goodness! You've had it tough for a very long time and obviously will continue to have a very difficult time. You must be very knowledgeable and have a lot of patience. Have you found it helpful to talk about this with others or have your friends sort of backed away? I ask this because I've found mixed reactions. Some people are very caring and concerned but then others seem to be distancing themselves. I'm assuming that many people just don't know how to respond or what to do.