@jeffmarc absolutely...the emotions I had in early June when MRI and biopsy confirmed..I was in shock, had to beg to get in to see my urologist..I teared up..she stood back and finally handed me a box of Kleenex and as she left the room for another patient, she patted me on the shoulder and said " in my professional opinion, you should still be around in 5 yrs" then she was gone..I knew I was on my own on this one..but got enrolled with Urology Austin oncology group who have been pretty caring along the way...but I have Googled my Gleason score and other particulars for prognoosis at least once a week since..it can make you a bit crazy...plus it is a commitment of time attention, discipline..finances, taking the medication, show up for radiation, make yourself go to gym..and sadly, some of your "friends" drop you cause of the cancer word..I knew when I saw the results it was gonna change my life around, and it has..but I am ok..