Dearest dzoneill, I am Sunnyflower. I just read your story and my heart is aching for all that you've been through. That is a lot of suffering, stress, anxiety, fear, etc. for anyone! I will be upholding you in prayer that God will work a miracle in your life and heal you all the way permanently and give you just the right doctors and care you need along the way. I will also be praying that you experience God's comfort and peace through Christ which surpasses human understanding. Warmest wishes, Sunnyflower