@thisismarilynb What about your kids, don't you have any contact with them?

@thisismarilynb
O Precious Marilyn,
Youve lived 91 years and spent 62 years with your husband and child(ren).
Youve had a good marriage. Theres a celebration here for that!
I want to encourage you to change your perspective.
Youre in good health and can drive.
Consider stepping out and visiting others; at a local w nursing home, volunteering to visit people in the hospital or spending time in a chilrens cancer hospital visiting them, playing a game, reading to them etc.
There might be a structured volunteer program in your area. Check it out.
You have so much to GIVE.
THATS the secret to loneliness and self judgment.
May you direct your thoughts and actions focusing on living Outwards rather than Inwards. Others need you!
We are in a day withd social media, stressors, political divide, uncertainty on so many levels.
What will draw peoples attention and open them up?
Kindness. Patience. A smile. A simple hello.
If you see someone struggling or having a tough time, offer a word of encouragement. Listen to them.
Look for a local childrens hospital and give 2 hours playing a card or board game, reading with or to a child.
Hospitals have many volunteer programs setup.4
Theres a whole lot of love to be shared.
When you give to the recipient, you are giving a gift:
Your time and a listening ear. That soothes the heart.
Fight the struggle of thinking others dont like you.
You dont know THEIR story.
They could be living with anger, grief, hopelessness, rjealousy, fear, depression and directing it stowards you. It cant be personal because they dont KNOW you.
You enjoy yourself and be your best friend and toss those feelings of self doubt and judgement aside.
Who cares what others think? They arent your everday
reality.
There are people who most likely feel lifer has beaten them up.
With that said, rise up and bring them a moment of joy.
TIME is the most valuable commodity.
When we invest in others, we, too, reap the rewards.
Seize the day.
God created you for His purpose. Have Him direct your path.
Blessings.

@thisismarilynb I have learned that most people grow up feeling like they are different and don't fit in. Those who tell you different are lying. I can see that a tough upbringing could make you think it is only you, but that's not the case. When you accept this, it is easier to have compassion for yourself and for others. No one is perfect (or better than or less than) anyone else. However, in order to receive acceptance, you first have to give it, first to yourself and then to others. Believe in yourself. Then to attract friends, be friendly. Smile. Give compliments. Empathize. If they don't respond at first, don't let it bother you. Just be nice to someone else. When we judge ourselves and find ourselves lacking, we tend to put on airs to protect ourselves. When people encounter these airs, they believe they are being judged and get defensive. This goes both ways. So don't get defensive. Happiness is a choice. When someone first told me that, I scoffed at it, but when I started to believe in myself and extend myself for others, it worked! We ALL need acceptance and community. Please let yourself be vulnerable enough to let others in.