@pdoubrava Yesterday, I had to go to the Home Depot to get some things and since I moved back into my house, there are so many problems with the house. Most are things that I can deal with. After my partner passed, I had all the carpet ripped out, cleaned the walls, other things as he and I drank and smoked in here for decades. I moved out when I got sober, so he continued to live here and smoke, drink, etc. Anyway, long story short, I quit smoking about a year into my sobriety (2018) and I had to get that smell out of here before I moved back in. Also, one of the toilets upstairs has a broken tank. While I was at the Home Depot, the American Standard toilets were on a great sale. I decided to charge one. With the help of an associate, we got the box onto the cart. (I am still strong but I pay for it). When I got back home, I realized "How in the hell am I going to get this out of the car by myself." Luckily, I have a nice neighbor across the street and he was able to help me. I also unloaded some landscape pavers (35 actually). I fell asleep early last night and woke at around 8:00 this morning. I felt like I had been hit by a bus. My body hurts this morning. Honestly, though, I feel like I have to do things when I can do them. I always pay for it the next day, but I can't live in fear of tomorrow. It probably wasn't a good idea, but that is what I do. So, today, I have taken my medicine and I am waiting for it to kick in.

As far as health insurance, I am trying to stay on the marketplace. I do not qualify for medicaid due to my not having kids. Yes, Tennessee has some b#llsh#t laws. There are so many cracks people like me and others fall through and the legislature and Governor do not seem to care, as is with the ruling party at the moment. I know I will be okay, one way or another. I have to have hope. I am grateful for your posts. My partner grew up in Pittsburgh, and it is a beautiful state from what I got to see. I hope you are well and you hang in there too. We support each other here and that is why I love this community.