@randyw2025, I totally relate to you and how you’re feeling, you’re a young man and this should never happen but it does, this disease is not concerned with your age and what it’s doing to your life. Have you ever watched the commercials from St Jude’s hospital and see the little children going through so much suffering, they haven’t even lived yet and they are fighting to stay alive. I’m also a cancer survivor and I’m not doing my best because mentally I still haven’t come to terms with it, I really respect and admire the many people here who are fighting back and living their best lives they deserve. I know that you will come to terms with your disease and the survival instinct is very strong, I talk to God everyday about my life and I can feel his strength inside of me, this is the best medicine I need to keep me going, I am sending you peace and strength to help you to heal, best wishes for you in your recovery, 🙏