Hi @crissyh76
I know some people who are doing well on Trileptal (Oxcarbazepine), and I hope it works just as well for you.
I completely understand what you're going through right now. When I started my treatment in 2019, I experienced similar hard feelings. I'd been a healthy woman my entire adult life and had taken very few medications—just birth control pills, really.
Starting treatment brought so many questions, and my anxiety spiked, which unfortunately lowered my seizure threshold. I found it helpful to educate myself about epilepsy, and yoga gave me a way to calm down (my teacher always reminds me not to anticipate possible "belly pains"). But the most valuable support came from working with a neuropsychologist.
Have you considered this kind of support as you begin your treatment?
Chris