@colleenyoung Thank you for the information. I have joined in the discussion group of loss and grief and know that it will help me just as this group has. The hardest thing I'm dealing with is that I get to move forward with my life but he doesn't get that chance anymore and I don't want to move forward without him. I know nobody expects their lives to go this way, but we are still young...he's 64 and i'm 60... and we had quite a few years ahead of us to enjoy the last of our days together and enjoy all the happiness that couple in love do. It took me 3 serious relationships, that didn't work out, to find the love of my life for the rest of my life and after 10 "short" years, I've lost him and I'm struggling.
This support forum has been wonderful for me and I will continue to keep coming even tho I am no longer his caregiver. After my visits with him in the memory care facility puts me through an extreme emotion strain that it's hard for me to function for the next several days and that's been the hardest thing for me right now, cuz I want him near me.. i want to touch him..to tuck him in at night..kiss him good morning and just be here for him during his dark days but I know i can't. I keep telling myself that over time things will get easier but it's hard for me to see that light at the end of the tunnel.
Thanks for listening and for your advise.