Hi dear,
I am in the same boat as you. I am pretty much alone in this and scared as well. I am trying to be prepared to lose my hair most likely in the second phase of chemo. I have a nice wig picked out in the event that I need it. I am taking it one day at a time. I know it will be difficult. I am 66 almost 67 and don't have the same reserve that I used to. But I do think taking it one day at a time is a key factor in keeping sanity. I also am Catholic so I pray and that is very helpful to me. God Bless all of us that are struggling with cancer.