Margot- My counts were down when I had chemo. It's very normal, although not ideal for sure. When you go for your infusion ask the nurses for more information about blood counts. I know that when my blood counts were bad from chemo it was disconcerting, I even was turned away because of it and missed one session. What is it that is upsetting you about this? That you will miss one or that it's not within a normal range? Chemo kills a lot of things so that it can kill your cancer too. Very upsetting. I'm glad that you are writing everything down.