Well, I’m back again. Today has been an extremely bad day. I decided to buy new bedroom furniture. I took my husband with me to the store. He chatted with everybody seemed OK when I showed him what I was buying. Today they are picking up the old furniture so I was emptying it and moving it. All of a sudden, he said I like the furniture we have I’m not sure why you are changing it. I explained to him, but he doesn’t remember. I have three friends I talk to at least once a week and my sister in England, he then said he doesn’t have any friends. I talk on the phone, but he doesn’t have anyone only me. In the past, that’s all we ever needed as we do not have any children and my family was in the UK. He doesn’t understand why I need to talk to other people, but he is 86 and I am 77 and quite honestly if something happens to him I will need someone. I can’t just cut my friends off and then say after If he goes before me here I am can you be my friend again although I am sure they would understand.
I canceled his appointment with the neurologist because we have never really addresssed the issue. I know he knows he’s forgetful and he can’t do what he used to, but I felt we didn’t need to go to a Dr who was going to drill it into him that he had a problem. He also fractured his back in three places so that has been a difficult recovery and we just found out a few months ago that his PSA count was up and his cancer returned so now he is on ADT, which will keep the cancer at bay. I haven’t told him he has cancer again. This will be the fourth time. I don’t see any point in worrying him when we go to get the shots. I just tell him that they are to keep his PSA low. My stress level is off the roof. I’m waiting to get my blood work back. I love this man so much It breaks my heart.