I'm not judging you, I'm giving my honest opinion on that genre of "music", since I don't consider someone talking with electronic noise in the background to be music. But if it connects with you on any level, and helps you deal with life's daily struggles then continue to listen to it.
My family all think I'm nuts for loving the music that I do, but I've been a metal head since the late 70's, and I sure as hell aren't going to stop listening to it now.
You do what you need to cope, and I'll do the same.