One year post cancer update

It's been a busy summer for me. I guess I'm back to normal except for having infusions and blood work every 21 days. The good news is I can have a normal life post cancer. In so many ways I'm better than I was a year ago. My first infusion was August 19, '24 my next infusion is August 20,'25. I have one year under my belt.

It's a wait and see game now. In all honesty isn't life just a wait and see game. We can set things up, but we can never predict the outcome.

I think about cancer a lot, but I'm not panicked by it anymore. I'm not going to die of cancer in the near future. I'm more likely to die in a car accident. Physically I feel great. I have sore hips. I think it's just the result of Herceptin and it's not terrible. It's just annoying. It doesn't limit my mobility or range of motion. I'm trying to even find ways to make the soreness feel good by stretching into it every day. My feet have some neuropathy. It often feels like they are tightly wrapped with tape. I do have feeling so I'm not at risk of an injury that isn't felt. Again I'm trying to find ways to enjoy the numbing feeling that I have in my feet.

My mom gave me the best gift ever when I was little, about 7 or 8. That's when I first developed ringing in my ears. She told me to ignore it. I did and still do. I have have tinnitus for my entire life and I ignore it all day everyday. I have the ability to ignore almost any bodily discomfort. I'm learning to do the same with emotional discomfort.

I didn't think I would be able to make the U turn to get back to feeling normal, but I have. It's such a remarkable return. To be able to feel optimistic after feeling so doomed is truly amazing. It's the best gift I have ever given myself.

Also look at all that hair I have! I can tell you how many people say I love your new hair cut!

Denise