@debhunter
thanks Deb. You know partners sometimes are not as "mothering" or "Nursey" as we wished. The- "would you like something while I am in the kitchen"- isn't on automatic.
Not complaining...just realistic. And for the first time in my life, I have a few friends I know I can count on.So...I am very lucky and grateful. It is the fear and uncertainty that catch me . Will things go well? Will I be left with pain and limitations that are not part of my so called realistic expectations? I nod when the doc says '"you know it will never be like new & there are chances of x/y/z." But on the inside, I still want to be a healthy 20 year old. And I get scared of unexpected consequences. And then I do being brave. Thank you for listening and caring. bluebirdsings