I am exactly there with you. I am 57, hold a full time job (thank god mainly remote - because I do not sleep enough to drive half the time) I have had to push through multiple projects this week on zero sleep (have not slept in 5 days) and I take care of my granddaughter one day on the weekends. Debilitating insomnia - 20+ years. Severe rebound insomnia when I run out of meds. I've been on everything. Have to get away from the Ambien. Only have trazadone - pretty worthless. I want to cry. It makes me angry. I get extremely agitated, sensitive to light and noise. Can barely interact with people - I feel like they all think I am crazy. No one understands insomnia. I feel like I'm dying sometimes. Body flooded with cortisol from not sleeping, and the elevated cortisol makes it impossible to sleep. It makes me rageful at the world (and everyone who can sleep), and very depressed - about my life, about my future. I have so many goals - so much I want to do - offer the world and contribute- everything is impacted by my inability to sleep. I exercise - have used CBD, have been in CBT. All of it. Numerous sleep specialists. The mind is a powerful thing.