@ginnysnow
I know people don’t listen. It’s frustrating when you want to say something that is important to you, and people brush it off.
My doctors interrupt me when I am trying to tell them something. When that happens, I will try and interrupt them by putting my hand up, and saying something like, “would you let me talk, or no, that’s not what I said”. I’m polite, but firm.

Ginny, what can you do to turn things around for yourself? There are many places you can call, and speak with a kind person.
I will help you, but first I need your help.

Are you seeing a therapist, they can help you even when you can’t pinpoint exactly what is wrong. I have just started back in therapy after 21 years. Just the act of going and knowing that I can be helped is a big relief. Started on med too. Sometimes the extra help from medicine is necessary. I wish you well.