@because Hi because -- My wife passed away unexpectedly in Feb of 2025, and I was in total shock and numb for 3 weeks. Even now, up is down and down is up and absolutely nothing is normal. We were married almost 53 years, and we loved one another very much. You are right, every day is a struggle and unfortunately, that is a fact involving grief. I think the stronger the relationship, the more difficult it is. I've accepted the fact that I will never be the same. It is very difficult trying to find that new life without the person you were with for many years. It is a struggle with no timeline. I try to look at it as 2 steps forward, 1 back. In time, 3 forward and 1 back. Please remember, you are not alone in this difficult time. Wish you well.