"I eventually did find some positive emotional growth as a result of all of the pain and agony."
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These are my sentiments after many years as I adjust to being off prednisone and in a sustained remission. When I was stuck on prednisone and couldn't taper off I was irritated that prednisone and all the side effects was my fate for the rest of my life. My quality of life wasn't very good. I looked forward to having a word with a higher power whenever I got the chance. I was going to demand an explanation for all the pain because I didn't know what I was expected to learn from it all. I thought the pain was unwarranted and unnecessary.

Now my outlook on the rest of my life has changed. I'm at peace that everything had some meaning. Things have turned around even though I can't really explain the meaning of the past. Things turned around when I had an encounter with a person who had an adrenal crisis and was in a coma. She claimed that she was sent back for some reason. It gave her some meaning to explain things to me so I would not have the same fate. She said that I needed to preserve whatever adrenal function I had left before she died. It was her grace that I currently aspire to.