I understand that totally. We have no kids but our girls are our family. We lost our 2 girls within months of each other..it was devastating. They are family. We waited almost 2 years to get another dog..then another so we have 2 girls again! That’s a normal grief reaction. Take your time and grieve the pups, no reason to hurry it. I can now laugh and smile and think of our girls but it took awhile..a long while. One was my heart dog, we called her.
Did your Dr give you something for nausea? Zofran helps a lot of people. I take my shot at night..10 pm maybe I slept thru it. I didn’t have nausea except a couple times when I ate too much like a whole steak…that was the last time. You will learn what you can and can’t eat anymore. I just felt like I had gorged myself at a buffet all the time. I would eat a couple bites and I couldn’t eat any more. I thought that is how these drugs worked, I thought everyone felt like that and that’s how you lost the weight. I couldn’t hardly get up and go places without being dizzy and faint from not eating. I talked my endo into reducing my dose and we have both been surprised that now I can eat with no problem and still no food noise or cravings. I get hungry once in awhile but I have been told hunger is not your enemy and it isn’t. Even if I’m hungry i don’t go crazy. The journey has been good for me. I am thankful for the compound because the starting dose pen I would have had to stop. I hope you can find a local compounding pharmacy if that’s what you choose. I was familiar with them because one of our pups had bladder cancer and the other one had kidney failure, they were small so we had to use compounded meds with them. As a nurse I was leery at first but I am very comfortable after using this since July of last year. I had no choice, my gastro said Do meds, surgery or die early. I wish you good luck! PS..I have just started into therapy after 21 years, trying to find other coping mechanisms, other than eating! Only my 3rd visit so hopefully it will help.