Ha Ha Ha --Loriesco I feel like I am looking in the mirror when I read your story--I am a 69 Year old male dealing with this shit for 30 + years --the struggle has take up the part of my life that was supposed to be fun, sexual, excititing--wel God had a differen course of action for me!. The attitude is so important--I am a shrink and it is so easy to help others--but when it comes to moi--forget it! I have turned the corner regarding my expectations of fantasizing about being "the way I was" and dealing with the way I am and doing things ie exercise, relationships etc that I can and believe it or not being around people who support me the way I am--Ive gone through two marriages and now I am seeking a soulmate who believes me and loves me for valid expectations.! well thats a start You have been good for my mental health already!!! Tyrone L