I feel deeply for you and your husband especially since you are both so young. I hope he finds the strength to fight this horrible cancer if not for him but you and children. I’m a young 79 yr old who had prostate surgery a year ago , every day I wish that I had refused to do anything and not give up my quality of life and enjoy what time is left . I’ve had a loving relationship for 40 yrs with my younger wife but feel like a stranger now when we go to bed at night. Wishing you and family get the help you need to survive this .