First, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way, mkean1250help. I get it. I have struggled with sleep for many, many years and now I take some natural herb-y things and Costco's Kirland sleep tab that help. I am not recommending what I do and it runs counter to what most folks here post. I have discovered YouTube Premium (no ads) for about $15 a month. There are MANY versions of "boring history for sleep" that last at least 2.5 hours and then rotate to something similar. My mind is VERY BUSY and I find that if listen to a very soothing voice, usually with an English accent, describing what life was like in ancient Rome or Egypt or how people lived in Medieval or Viking villages, I fall asleep within a few minutes. I keep the volume low--it's not current, it's not super interesting... hence, I search for "boring history for sleep." I also recommend a quality sleep mask. Please don't come for me, anti-TV people... this is what has worked for this insomniac. 🙂