@thisismarilynb - In my support group, one lady lost her husband 4 years ago and says the same as you, her husband passed away after 59 years. She feels she will never be the same and many have told me the same. For me, now 27 weeks since my wife passed away, I feel the same. When 2 people have a strong marriage, I feel the degree of grief reflects the strength of the marriage. This all takes time and unfortunately, there is no road map to guide a person through the loss of a spouse. Two steps forward, one back. And, along the way, I often ask myself how my wife would want me to live my life. After almost 53 years of marriage, I tbink I know. Be well.