Do not blame yourself for this. It was a well known fact that the tobacco companies suppressed information . I see how the authorities finally sued them and made them pay . . I am not sure where the monies went from the tobacco fines and government suits. It is obvious that there is no fund to help the people that are afflicted with the results . We are to fight insurance plans for help to pay medical costs to help us feel better . We cannot buy a cure . I am resigned to dying from emphysema. I lose, I think , a total of 10 years or so . The thing that bothers me about it, is that this fatal , no cure disease , took away my ability to fulfill the
things I could do . My mind still thinks like I have 10 years . Then , reality sets in and crushes the thought . So my dreams are crushed over and over. Blessed Be, Crystalena