I thought I had it bad but I’m learning. I can’t imagine! Never goes away? Every day, all day? How do you do it? Meds? Meditation? Dark room? Accupuncture? Is it up and down, bad, really bad go to not as bad, over and over, or pretty much the same all the time? Any advice, how you manage would help? I go through long periods when I think I’m going to ‘lose it’ but eventually I will get a break, even if it’s a day. The longest break I ever had, almost 2+ weeks. Just long enough for hope to start… I have time a very hard time showing real feelings, was raised to ignore and never show them, but you’ve hit me way down….