I cannot really help because I was tapered off this drug in 2018 under the supervision of my primary care provider and neurologist. It took 7 months. I agree with you about your desire to stop it. What I can say is get medical help . Do not stop cold turkey on your own. You will be at risk of a seizure. Is there any telehealth providers that could help you? Can you travel to a provider that could give you a taper schedule? I live in a rural area too and with all the changes in health care now funding etc I travel about 1 1/2 hours. I will combine my appts with other errands like shopping hair cuts vet care for our dogs. Just suggesting.