I empathize having chronic pain for 30 years. The light opioid use has gotten me through with grace. It is the only thing I take. I had a miracle after 30 years -- I found out that the gout was causing my all over body pain and inflammatory reactions. THIRTY YEARS. I'm on Allopurinol now (you can try Zazzee Tart Cherry Capsules to see if that may help you). I have Osteo Arthritis but my gout was entirely ignored by many many TOP doctors! Simple fix! Now I am much improved. New stop trying.
Also, now I have adapted to exercising WITH the pain. It is amazing! I got so angry at the pain that I lashed out at it with exercises. It really helps reduce the pain and release endorphins to help you be happier.
Sometimes I am quite miserable and I just "stop." and be miserable because aging with OA is horrible!
But here's my saving grace, my solace, my consolation: Being creative, curious and crafty! I am totally distracted from my misery by being totally involved in my PASSION.
My recommendation is to find your PASSION. Don't waste time on what you can't do anymore - find some things you CAN do. When you can't do anything than read a book or watch a movie.
Also - the weather makes my arthritis worse. 20 years ago when I figured this out I up and moved. Cost me a fortunate but it was well worth it. 20 years later, I probably need to move again. But I'm lazier about it.
I hope you will find some things to be passionate about!
And get a good therapist to help you through the things you can't control and to figure out what is in your power to overcome. That is helpful too!
Find a buddie - maybe from your church - who will periodically come by and just spend time with you. Figure out what interests you may have and focus on developing those when you are able. Good luck.