Thanks Phil 💗- it is exactly THAT !
You covered every single trail of thoughts that one has in this chaotic situation and every possible emotion 😟. We all are just pawns of destiny moved here and there, back and forth and kicked off the board of life the moment "all seeing eye" blinks, it seems. It is all so random that it is maddening. I guess PC truly represents a life in a nutshell, or shall we say in a "life in a gland capsule" 🤨. It all can go this or that way on its own whim. As a person who never acts on a whim and has everything thought over multiple times (perpetual Libra) curve-balls are disheartening and scary to no end. 🥺 I feel like somebody pushed me back under the water the moment I climbed on very fragile tiny boat that I hardly constructed out of information scraps collected for 5 months.
Thank you Phil for finding time to write, means a LOT 🤗