Wow, you are saying all the things I am saying and asking myself.
My son 36 is in a mental health crisis. He is living on the street. He was staying with me and my second husband but went into a horrific situation and came after me wanting all my money in my account and my car keys. I had to call the police. I thought he might get taken to the hospital for another assessment. But no they held him for 2 days and released him. With a court order to not contact me.
Now, I have not heard from him and I tried to talk with his probation officer and all she told me was that he has not reported in at all and they are looking for him.
Which means he is out on the streets and has in a major psychotic crisis.
I can only get him out of my mind for a few minutes at a time. It is hard to keep positive.
One of my friends said “ people always say they have to reach bottom, but when it isn’t them anymore is bottom death”

So many family and friends just hold it all against him. Like he is choosing this.
How do tell people it isn’t him! It is the disease!!

Like you and your son, we were always close. And now nothing.
He has no other family than me. And his friends have either left him or he has left them because they don’t believe in his beliefs. His only friends now are the people he talks to in his head.