Hello, I'm so sorry to hearing you are having such a difficult time. I have had 2 brain surgeries and also radiation. After 6 years I still have some numbness, intermittent pain and pressure. I have realized that I have what is called, "a new normal". I believe it really helps to talk with others because I know for me, I start thinking something else is going wrong, or I'm the only person going through what I am, and then I realize, I'm not, and that for the most part I'm going to be fine. I'm not sure why it's comforting to know other people are experiencing the same things I am post surgery, but I think it's an indicator that this is how brain tumor surgeries turn out, we're not odd, we're not complainers, we didn't get a bad surgery, it's just how it is. I'm really hoping things improve for you soon, and you're able to enjoy all the wonderful things life has to offer. Remember, we're #braintumorwarriors, 1 for all and all for 1. love,peg