Increasingly Difficult to Accept Peripheral Neuropathy

No cheerleading from here. Just what has so far helped me--
I have felt similarly for different reasons. I had a relatively good run into my old age, eating and exercising healthily. Then, wham! Stenosis, sciatica, failed PT, spinal fusion surgery, unrelated infection, re-hospitalization, dropped left ankle, numbness, pain, neuropathy, defensive surgeon, more pain, then searching for and finally finding an inquisitive neurologist, and an optimistic, knowledgeable physical therapist. Meantime, and crucially, my husband was able to switch to caregiving, assuring me we were still in this together, and I was not a burden. This was key to my beginning to regain a sense of worth.
Staying in the day and staying out of the dark movie my mind can produce about my future also has been key, along with therapy and prescribed medication for depression. Joining the local senior center and continuing a Zoom meeting with a former support group has also helped me keep my head up and more accepting of the "new normal."
In my mid-80's, I am learning to walk again, first with a rolling walker, and lately trying out forearm crutches. I'll still need my power chair, but I have greater leg strength through PT and exercising, and PT will concentrate more now on my endurance. My pain has lessened over the years, which is never guaranteed, but for which I am grateful.
My husband and I are also making plans to get ahead of any future health crises by selling our beloved home and moving to a nearby independent living community. These are big changes, but we are able to ask for and get help from our family, to navigate it mentally and emotionally, and to have this option financially.
So, while this is a long post, it's the condensed version of my time since neuropathy arrived in my life. While it is different from your story, the value we can find here is that we are understood, and not alone.

Omg. Im so sorry that you have to live with this. I also have severe sensory autonomic polyneuropathy. Im in constant pain throughout my body.
Dr's are having a difficult time diagnosing the cause. Mine began in my toe in 2014, today its all over, my eyes my memory is going. I have it severely in my feet, I can no longer feel the ground and need cane or walker or I'd fall over.
My eyes began with blurring, now the light blinds and hurts my eyes. I've lost a lot of weight due to the disease. Im so weak, fatigued, anxious and lack sleep due to it.
When driving it sometimes feels like I'm in a tunnel it makes me anxious and afraid, but leaves in a couple minutes.
The severe throbbing burning pain in the legs from ankles to buttocks is so much worse when I lye did it's 24 hour pain.
Im becom a mean woman and can't seem to control my emotions.
I thought from the pain med, but have since gone off them and still can't control my feelings, mainly if something irratates me.
My hands and fingers have lost their strength, I drop things. My hand writing is beginning to be affected by it.
I cannot take the gabba, but still take it to help the pain some. It makes me feel so loopy also contributes to my imbalance.
I cannot live with this much longer. It's consuming me and has taken away all my joy, with family, friends, and all socializing.
Tell me you're still with us! I've told my family that this disease is killing me but no one seems to take the time to read up on it. They are oblivious as to why I need my cane or assistance.