I put my head on my husband in bed and the quiet tears just roll down my face. So hard to lose him a day at a time. We are at the stage of forgetting names etc. I have to try and understand what he means or is asking for. The other day he put soap from the sink in his coffee to cool it down instead of water thank goodness he only took a sip and I was there. On top of it he was just diagnosed with recurrence of his prostrate cancer. I told his dr not to tell him I just keep saying it’s a preventive measure as you get older so far he is ok with it, 14 days of pills 1 shot 14 days of pills and then no shot for 3 months. I have only told my best friend, I can’t tell my sister because when I say it’s a secret and she tells someone she just says sorry I forgot. It drives me crazy. But today is a good day.