I updated my will and spoke with my brother in detail what to do.

Obviously nobody agrees with my decision but they understand it.

I talk to whoever wants to talk to me. I haven't shut anyone out of my life. I'm the beginning I distance myself from a lot of people because I felt like a broken record repeating the same thing over and over. People understood and backed off and told me when I'm ready they were there. That's exactly what I needed. That's why on Facebook I posted it once instead of repeating myself. Once it got out of my head I felt better.

Everyone will tell you the same thing (and this goes about everything) never ever go down the Google rabbit hole. It's dangerous and will only make you feel worse. That's what I did and I'm guessing everyone else.

You know what I mean 🤣

Thanks