I agree with you Phil, when we lay our heads on the pillow at night it’s just us and the cancer- wake up pretty much the same way, alone with cancer. But I don’t pay that noise no mind cause it’s just “colored bubbles” and meaningless. You’re in all our leagues and I can only speak for myself but, I need you and your knowledge and understanding cause I have an oncologist just itching to take away my pain meds instead of shining a light on me and saying, “look what I’ve done” and that’s been the toughest pill to swallow I’ve ever experienced or expected just because I question his methodology and refuse some of his tests. Also at stage 3b kidney failure he keeps wanting to run tests he already knows the answer to and order them with contrast ( a real no-no for me and the condition of my kidneys and advanced age) at soon to be 71. He hides behind his PA’s to deliver negative replies to my suggestions concerning my treatment as if I have no right to participate in my own treatment plan cause I’m too stupid to understand his techniques. Now this is the point where most people back down, but not me- nice try wrong guy! I have an appointment at Cleveland Clinic August 11th and it’s on like donkey Kong. Gonna hit his ass with a second opinion which will really frost his cookies! Really do believe he’s trying to kill me before 1 of these diseases does or let me linger in inexplicable pain. We’ll see cause I don’t back down as I’d rather go down swinging than roll over and die because his textbooks say so. Stay with us all- all good people just like you! Peace out, Bob