I have a natural reaction to this and I am needing to tell you that I sincerely hurt inside for you. I know that one day I will go through the same thing and I would be dishonest to say I’m not scared. I remember when I heard Alex Trebek in an interview and he spoke about his battle with pancreatic cancer, he was so peaceful and accepting of his illness and he only felt sadness for the family he would be leaving behind, I especially felt some comfort when he said that he wasn’t afraid to go because he believed that his journey in life doesn’t end here, there was so much more to come after we die. His words were helpful for me and I wanted to believe in him for comfort. I recall asking my mother who was very ill if she was afraid to die and she said no, she was more concerned about how she would leave this world. My mom had a very difficult life and lost so many family members and friends in the holocaust so her viewpoints were different from others. I hope that you find peace inside and no more suffering, I will pray for you and know that God is always there for you to talk to and hear your prayers, peace and love to you, amen