First, I want you all to know I appreciate your words very much. I thought I should give you a little more information. Within the last 10 years I have found my mother dead found my father dead Lost my only granddaughter to an accident lost my brother who I completely adored My nephew was killed my aunt died suddenly and my sister and my daughter both have made comments that they wish someone was in heaven waiting with their children that have died. My mother and brother and father I'll head open heart surgery My mother got Mercer and died my brother and my father but did Billy will help with it. I've had nine surgeries in my life I've died on the table three times, I just don't know if it's worth going through all that or putting in God's hands and letting everything happen the way it will. My husband are extremely poor We don't have a car we live in a mobile home falling down and it just isn't going to get better I don't think. So really I'm struggling for a reason to fight for my own life. I quit going to the doctor's because I didn't want to be here with all the pain I had been through emotionally. Thank you all for listening. God bless you!