I'm so sorry you've had such a difficult time. I was diagnosed with MAC in 2012 also and had no trouble with the rifamprin, ethambutal, and clarithromycin. I'm concerned that you refuse to take the recommended drugs out of fear and/or anger. Get a second opinion on resistance and protocols. You are not doomed to die. I suggest a therapist to help with the anger and to cope with your fears. This support group has many helpful suggestions for you.