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Hi, I didn’t have anxiety or mild depression until I experienced a major medical episode around a year and a half ago. Since that day, I haven’t been able to sleep without taking Ativan or Ambien and interestingly I haven’t been able to cry either. The sleep and anxiety I can understand because my body is stuck in the fight or flight mode due to a very difficult four month period. But I don’t understand why I can’t shed a tear. I didn’t suffer a loss of a loved one but I did suffer a loss of myself. I most likely won’t ever be the person I was before. You’re probably right. No one can ever understand what experiencing high anxiety or depression is like unless they experience it themselves. It’s wonderful that you’re in this group to get the support you were hoping to get from your friends or family. Best of luck.
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@jhenson Hey,
Thanks for sharing that — I can totally relate to what you said. It’s crazy how one big health event can just flip your whole world upside down. I had something similar happen, and since then my anxiety’s been stuck on high alert too. It really does feel like your body forgets how to relax.
What you said about not being able to cry hit me hard. I get that so much. It’s like your emotions are trapped somewhere deep inside — you want to cry, but it just doesn’t happen. And yeah, it’s a weird kind of loss… not of someone else, but of yourself.
I know what you mean about not feeling like the same person anymore. I’m trying to accept that maybe I’ll never be exactly who I was before either — but maybe that’s okay. Maybe it just means we’re learning a new version of ourselves, one step at a time.
I really appreciate your message. It’s nice to talk to someone who actually gets it. Wishing you calmer nights and a bit of peace — we both deserve that. 💜