Hey Bud, I was the same way - although sometimes we think that WE ALONE have these intense feelings of anxiety, dread and almost incapacitation.
Trust me - and others! - we’ve all felt like crawling into a hole and never coming out…but that’s not gonna help anything, right?
I got so damned tired of being afraid that one day, I just…stopped. I said f**k it, if it’s gonna try and kill me, it better try hard cause I’m gonna do anything and everything I can to fight back. Only one of us can win and that’s all there is to it.
So I took the ADT, I got blasted with radiation and now I’m waiting - not hysterically- for Round 3 if luck is against me. Plenty before me have gone MANY rounds with this parasite and they’re still here, traveling, loving their grandchildren, and enjoying their lives. YOU ARE NOT DIFFERENT OR SPECIAL and I don’t mean that as a criticism or a put down.
You are facing what tens of thousands have faced before you and the vast majority - probably over 85% - are still here, OK? Just breathe, try to clear your mind and put yourself in the hands of the VERY VERY BEST people you can find.
And please accept the fact that this prostate cancer crap is a lifetime gig which you will never be able to turn your back on - ever! But If you happened to see the chart of mortality rates that @brianjarvis posted recently, you’d be overjoyed that you didn’t have many of the other cancers that have a much worse prognosis. What we have sucks, but it’s very treatable; what others have can practically be a death sentence in some cases, so please, PLEASE! put it in perspective, get your game face on and go do what has to be done. Best,
Phil